Friday, February 24, 2012


if you truly love someone, you'll wait for them no matter how long it may take; and at the end of it all, you'll be stronger then ever and you'll last forever ♥


I was in a super sad mood today.
I still kind of am.

But school was super easy, watched movies in both my 1st and 5th hour, and 3rd hour we just listened to our concert and rated ourselves.

1st hour movie was Radio, I love that movie! So good. Very sad in some parts though. Then 5th hour we watched My Sister's Keeper, which I've never seen, but everyone kept saying it was a super sad tear jerker. So Monday is going to be fun when we finish these movies.

Took a 3 hour nap when I got home, that helped me feel better, but now I'm listening to sappy songs, which doesn't help, but I really just want to cry to get it out of my system. I just can't seem to cry anymore/:

Wednesday, February 22, 2012


I ran 2 miles in 17min35secs! A lot better than last time. Kept a solid pace with Danny. She kept me going(:

Also spent time with my grandparents. Then went to Prayer group with them. It feels good to be back, but I still feel like something is missing.

Sunday, February 19, 2012


I had a very good day today. I really enjoyed myself. Seen some old friends(:

Seen some people who don't particularly like me, some people gave me the STANK eye. haha, whatever. People amuse me. I amuse myself sometimes too.

I miss the past. I've been struggling with a lot of stuff lately. I have been a total Hermit crab the past few months. Today is the first time in a while that I actually had true FUN and enjoyed myself. I didn't worry about stuff like I have been recently.

School, grades, family, NHS, Soccer, boys (Josh), my dog, band, "friends". All this has added up, and up, and piled on, and on. I have been so depressed, and I HATE it. I have had no one to vent to about how I've felt. At least no one I've felt comfortable venting to.

I'm tired of my heart aching. I wish I could be happy and cheerful and SMILE all the time like I use't to. But lately, I have nothing to smile about. Recently I just smile because I've always been a smiley person, even when I feel like I'm dying inside. ):

Merh, It feels good to type all of this down and get my nasty thoughts out of me, even venting on my blog, not knowing if anyone will even read this, is better than keeping it bottled up.

Well, thanks for being there for me blogger (:

Sunday, February 12, 2012


I had fun helping people get ready for Winterfest.

I love playing with hair & makeup.

Both Rachel & Alyssa looked gorgeous. I hope they had fun at the dance (:

Friday, February 10, 2012

I miss...

I miss having friends at school.
I miss having friends period.

I've been so lonely lately. ):

Wednesday, February 8, 2012

Friday, February 3, 2012